I have an unhealthy tendency to base my life off fictional characters. As a child this tended to come from books I read (I tried on all the different Babysitter's Club members personalities), but upon hitting my teens I found myself taking inspiration from characters on the screen. Perhaps this was due to an increased interest in fashion and aesthetics, but I found myself taking cues from films more and more. I've done concrete things like take up roller derby after watching Whip It, and recognised parts of myself in the title character of (500) Days of Summer. I was on a date with a guy last week who shares my cinematic mindset and planned a picnic thinking we could watch passers-by like in Annie Hall, forgetting that it was early January in Ireland, and we were just very cold instead. I tend to view myself as the director of my own life, picking outfits and songs and hobbies that fit into my view of how my world should be. I continuously work on my own character, deciding who I want to be. This may seem odd, but I've also felt that I should never feel trapped into a set personality, that it is entirely possible to turn yourself into the type of person you want to be, and not in the cheesey self-help book kind of way. I constantly take inspiration from everything around me, including fictional characters. I don't tend to completely steal personalities, but I do feel the following characters in particular are people I'm happy to take inspiration from.
1. Margot Tenenbaum, The Royal Tenenbaums.
This was the first Wes Anderson film I watched, and I fell in love with the world he created immediately. Margot, in particular, was someone fourteen year-old Grace wanted to be. She was everything I wasn't: mysterious, creative, successful. As someone who shared her secretive tendencies, I felt like this character could be a better version of me. Margot's signature fur coat was an image that stayed with me, and led to my purchase of a (faux) fur coat several years later. And, of course, the elegance she brought to smoking made it appealing to a impressionable teenage girl. Most of all, she made unhappiness seem so mysterious and beautiful in a way. I guess that's everything a teenage girl wants. These days I admire Margot for her elegance, but no longer want to be her. And I curse her for making smoking look so damn cool.
2. Holly Golightly, Breakfast at Tiffany's
This is actually a very recent addition to my list of fictional heroines. I re-watched the film for the first time in years in November, and was struck by this simple fact: Holly is a complete and utter mess. She can't save, she's cut herself off from all her family, she's willing to put financial gains over love and her apartment constantly looks like she's just moved in. Yet she retains a certain charm. To put this into perspective, when I watched the film I was about two months into college, and my friends were constantly trying to gently tell me that I had turned into a bit of a mess. Well, I had always been a bit of a mess, I just think it was more obvious once I didn't have the structure of school anymore. So there were lots of incidents where I stumbled into lectures wearing my party dress from the night before etc. I had an epiphany while watching Breakfast at Tiffany's: it is perfectly okay to be a bit messy. Being perfect is honestly quite boring, so instead of trying to convince people that I was actually fine, I just started joking about my antics and admitted to myself that I have a wild streak and there's no point in trying to bury that. Result: I managed to stop stumbling into lectures in a state, but still have adventures. Basically, I gained a small amount of class and a large amount of self-acceptance. Heartwarming, isn't it?
3. Olive Penderghast, Easy A.
Ah, rumours. Seemingly a part of teenage life. When Olive finds herself hot gossip due to completely untrue fabrications, she decides to make the best of the situation, taking her sexuality into her own hands and enjoying her new notoriety. Words cannot describe how much I love Olive, mostly because I've found myself the centre of made-up gossip many a time (at one point I was apparently pregnant, another time I got whisked off to London by a boy who wished to steal me from someone I was supposedly going out with). Seeing a witty character so completely at ease with herself and giving everyone the middle finger by taking a rumour and using it to her advantage is incredibly refreshing. Plus she wears amazing lingerie as outerwear, always a plus in my book.
4. Charlotte, Lost in Translation.